With the release of her new single “Monsters,” Kat Saul tackles the gradual change in the fears we have as we grow up. As children, we’re often scared of things that aren’t real, like the monsters under our bed, the Boogeyman, and the scary creatures from the horror films we swore that we were brave enough to watch. The older we get, the more those fears change into tangible torments. In high school, we’re afraid of failure and teenage heartbreak; and as adults, we begin to fear financial troubles and loneliness on top of disappointment and distress. Some of us even deal with demons in our heads that take the form of mental illness.
For Saul, her fears shifted again when she moved from Nashville to Los Angeles just before the global pandemic hit the US. She combats the unknown with distractions from a part-time lover and by creating music.
“Monsters” opens with a rhetorical question to herself, “What did I expect?” Her thoughts quickly begin a downward spiral as the gentle piano accompaniment crescendos with a synthesized beat, and insomnia effectively kicks in. She starts to reflect on what kept her up at night as a child and realizes how much has changed. When she was a kid, she feared aliens and spaceships, and now as an adult, she grapples with anxiety and the fear of feeling too much and not being good enough. Saul even admits that she’d rather deal with the ghosts she was terrified of in the past than cope with the nightmares that plague her mind now.
I think I’d rather run into a ghost than spend another night here on my own (all alone)
Smoking cigarettes and staying home
Cause it’s a nightmare
My mind never plays fair
Check out “Monsters” below! Be sure to follow Kat Saul on Instagram and Twitter.
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